“I Still Feel Numb”: Influencer Kate Opens Up About the Anniversary of Boyfriend Liam’s Death and the Pain That Never Leaves

One year after losing her beloved boyfriend, Liam, social media personality Kate has opened up in an emotional video about the grief, numbness, and strange peace that have followed her through the past twelve months.

Fighting back tears, Kate shared her reflections on October 12, the anniversary of the last day she saw Liam alive. It was in Argentina, where the couple had spent two blissful weeks together — a trip that now feels almost fated.

“I felt like it was almost meant to be,” she said softly. “That this trip happened to be a 20-minute drive from my apartment.”

For Kate, that coincidence has taken on a bittersweet meaning — a small mercy in the midst of overwhelming loss.

A Final Goodbye in Argentina

In the heartfelt video shared with her followers, Kate recalled the quiet, tender moments that marked her final hours with Liam.

“The last day that I was with Liam in Argentina before I left, the car was in the driveway,” she said, her voice trembling. “I was sitting on the couch just expressing to him how much I was going to miss him, how much I loved him.”

She paused before adding, “Honestly, it’s so weird to look back at because it was such a long, heartfelt goodbye. I didn’t know it then, but that was the last time I’d ever see him.”

Kate described leaving Liam behind as she boarded her flight back to the United States — a departure that now carries unbearable weight. “We had a long, heartfelt goodbye,” she said. “I remember looking back one last time before getting in the car. It’s something I replay in my head all the time.”

“I Feel Numb” — Grief One Year Later

As the anniversary approached, Kate admitted that she had woken up feeling detached and strangely emotionless.

“I feel honestly extremely numb today,” she confessed. “I woke up and I’ve never felt like this before. I think someone could slap me across the face and I wouldn’t even be fazed.”

Her raw honesty struck a chord with fans who have followed her grief journey since Liam’s passing on October 16th last year.

“So if I don’t seem like I have a ton of emotions, that’s why,” she said. “But I wanted to make this video because I wanted to express how important it is to really remind your loved ones how much you love them. You never know what tomorrow brings.”

The simplicity of her message resonated deeply — a reminder that love and loss are inseparable, and that grief often looks nothing like the movies.

Remembering Without Breaking

Kate shared that she plans to spend the anniversary quietly, opting out of any major commitments or public events.

“After a lot of consideration, I know Liam would want me to go on with life,” she said. “But I’m not going to be doing anything on the 16th. I’ll be here in my apartment. I know for a fact I wouldn’t be able to commit to any plans that day.”

While she admits the coming days will be difficult, Kate says she’s trying to find ways to honor Liam’s memory without being consumed by sadness.

“It’s not going to be the easiest week,” she acknowledged. “I have so many mixed emotions. Grief comes in waves.”

The Healing Journey

Over the past year, Kate has been open about her struggles with grief, often using her platform to encourage others who have experienced loss. In her latest video, she explained how she’s learned to balance remembrance with healing.

“For me, I like to stay busy,” she said. “It keeps my mind positive, it keeps me active. Doing nothing — lying in bed or sitting around the house — does absolutely no good things for my headspace. It reminds me of a really dark place I was in last year, and I’m finally starting to see the light again.”

Kate revealed that she recently accepted an invitation for a brand trip to Miami, which she described as “wholesome and peaceful.”

“It’s not a partying trip,” she clarified. “We’ll have Pilates, brunches, poolside time — just relaxing. If it was a party trip, I wouldn’t be going.”

The trip’s proximity — only a short drive from her home — also seemed to carry symbolic comfort. “I feel like I wouldn’t want to be traveling on a plane right now or anything,” she added.

Holding On to Love

As she closed her video, Kate’s voice softened once more. “If there’s anything I can say to anyone watching, it’s this: Tell your loved ones you love them. Even if they already know. You never know what tomorrow brings.”

For millions who’ve watched her grief unfold online, Kate’s openness is both heartbreaking and healing. She doesn’t pretend to have moved on — instead, she’s learning to live alongside her loss, a day at a time.

“I’m not the same person I was a year ago,” she admitted. “But I think Liam would be proud that I’m still trying to find light again.”

As she prepares to spend October 16th quietly at home, Kate’s story serves as a universal reminder: grief may never fully fade, but love — even in its most painful form — never truly dies.